25

i'm 25 now.

i'm really not sure what that means.

to suggest that it means anything at all is attempting to define my generation, or assign expectations to my own life. the former is impossible. the latter is depressing.

other people my age are in the thick of it. life decisions. apartments. career moves. careers.

hi here's me. mall job. mall pay. living at home. 17 unfinished stories. zero finished anything.

i would love to greet this world with optimism.

lacking that, i'd settle for courage.

lacking that, i'd settle for perseverance.

lacking that, i'd settle for a self-loathing strong enough to force an approximation of one of the above.